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Friday, August 13, 2010 @ 12:20 AM
Kayy, besides going to the running track nearby, the last time I dressed up/had make-up on/wore a dress and met people other than my own family was last Sat I think.
Loner much?
Nahhh. Maybe it's due to the company at home sweet home. Sarah's been bumming with me ( her first day at SIM's on 23rd) and Corinne stays over often to accompany her. Even Lydia-the-havoc-3rd-sister comes back home early after school so yea, I've them to crap with and do stupid stuffs like create parody of Backstreet Boys oldies or debating over the storyline of the latest 9pm Channel8 drama - Unriddle. OMG Rui En is HOT eh!
It's nice staying at home laaa. I've been busy doing read-ups on my first module (behavioural science), marked important dates on my girly organizer, catching up on world news on TV and the papers, planning my schedule for the next 3months and got down to set some mini goals to accomplish by 2010! (Y)
Sometimes I wonder though, am I a bad friend?
I feel that I want too much of my own personal time that I tend to forget I have lovely people around me that I need to catch up and hang out with. You know what, I think it has something to do with me being happily single. Or am I stereotyping my attached friends? I keep having this naggy feeling - "aiyah my friends got their bfs/gfs to fill up their already very busy schedule, sif they got time to meet up." Eh c'mon, even my sisters have partners loh. Like seriously, MOST of my close girlfriends are happily attached.Theo has Joshua, Yuanfen has Joel, Meiyi has Vincent, Sheena's got Jackson...omgggg, if I name all the girls around me, I can seriously scream :
"DAMN. MY GIRLFRIENDS ARE EITHER ATTACHED OR MARRIED"
I repeat. ALL.
No don't pity me and no, I ain't showing any sign of sour grapes (yea continue to let your imagination run wild but hell to the no). I must INSIST that I am perfectly fine embracing singlehood. Oh c'mon, you guys know me. But but, I have to admit though, it's nice to have someone to miss or care about; someone there for me to rant my woes to, someone for me to hug, someone to go running with, someone I can show my dumb side but not feel ridiculously stupid, someone to go on movie dates, someone to take me by the hand, someone to devour yummy chocolates with! Shucks, I re-read what I just typed and I feel silly ttm. Like really? That is all I want in a relationship? Hmmm yes, straight from the heart, that is all I want.
I don't know man. Have we gotten too complex for love?
Well however unexplainable that four letter word is, guess I'm pretty much contented being single for now. :)
Que Sera, Sera.
"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken, it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside of Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell."
