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Thursday, December 29, 2011 @ 6:18 PM


I was typing an entry filled with hopes for the new year and came up with resolutions I know I might not be able to accomplish (like learn how to swim in 2011); then, I remembered this quote from one of my favorite writers - Neil Gaiman.

"May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself." 

I deleted the whole entry and decided that for year 2012, I'm just gonna do what I feel like doing. There will be no rush, no commitment, no worries. Maybe I should travel and work..maybe I should learn a new language..take up an enrichment course, learn a new skill..maybe I should start getting down to getting my driving license..maybe I should do an internship..maybe I should buy a kickass camera and learn photography or start reading about gardening so I'll make full use of the little plot of garden soil my friend gave to me. Maybe I should teach..or maybe go to a third world country and do some community work..

Or maybe..just maybe, I could fall in love? ;)

In all honesty, I have no plans whatsoever. I may be a "fresh grad" but I already know how society works and seriously, I have the rest of my life to slog..so why should I bound myself with the stress of work now? For all you know, I might not even want to retire in Singapore (that's an entry for another day). I would like to say that I'm still young and I wanna see the world even more..I'm not contented with just a few travels. I'm greedy and I know there is SO MUCH to see and learn about.

Maybe it's a blessing that I'm single and have no commitments. I don't have to think about queuing for an expensive flat, I don't have to think about starting a family as yet (I want to! but not at the moment), I don't have to account to anyone about my decisions in life. Of course, I have to think of my parents and give my gratitude..but that's about all, right?

Am I avoiding responsibilities as an adult? Or am I getting withdrawal symptoms from the traveling? I don't know anymore.

I am just being myself. This is all that matters, no?


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